i dont know who to talk to about this to. i went in to therapy today and talked about my recurring dreams and my less than stellar moods. she thinks i go into patterns of depression related to hormone activity. and that i should really consider becoming medicated.
i just want to cry, really. everytime i feel like things are getting better, something inside of me always finds a crack and hammers and chips until its wide open. i've been getting really testy with kyle again, and have had to literally bite my lip until it bleeds. and i cannot be in the same room with other certain people because i can actually feel heat rising to my ears. i misconstrue things and push people away and assume that i am being shafted and its fucking pathetic. the world is against me mentality is back with a vengeance, and i really thought that i had it under control.
why i am i so fucking bent out of shape?
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i don't think medication is the way to go. the kind of medication you go on to fix moods is zombie-fying crap. it doesn't fix anything, it makes you not feel at all.
i think what's important for you to do is to recognize these moods and feelings when you are having them and work on being able to fix them when they're occuring.
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