maybe you can learn to be happy. maybe you can find a purpose. and maybe it isn't always easy, but you can learn to let go of things that hurt. 

at the end of the day, you only really have yourself, no matter how much other people are there. and yourself is the only one that suffers from the unhappiness that you cause. i think i'm finally done being in love with my sadness and residual pain. 

i'll always be overly emotional, i grew up that way. its hard to unlearn that. but maybe with the right kind of mindfulness, i can accept that people have selfish desires that may hurt but aren't directed towards me. i have so much growing up to do, and i only hope that the blunders i make along the way don't drive anyone away. 

but at the same time, must i always apologize for how i feel? i guess it's a catch 22, and i shouldn't find something else to hold onto. 

forgive and forget.