Being caught up in the sandstorm of emotions is a trying thing. In my quest for personal growth, I have realized that I used to devalue some important relationships in my life, like my family. I am also feeling very sorry that I haven't committed one thousand percent to Buddhism like I claimed I would- not to say that I'm not trying. It's true that I'm changing rapidly. I'm just feeling a lot right now, and I don't know how I feel about that. Talk about paradox.
I drove on Black Mtn. Road today, off of the 280 North, and there is this beautiful look off point, where the road is low and close to a lake (pond, really) on the right and a ravine and mountain loom to the left. You just feel so little compared to it's majesty, and so appreciative that nature is awesome, even when there is a highway in the middle of it. My mind just went blank because there are no words to describe the serenity + beauty of it. None.
